Saturday, March 21, 2009
Now is 7am,21 MAR 09. Stupid connection.
Anyway, I have an urge to blog three things:
1) Edwina's Birthday (E.D.)2) Who Am I?3) The scariest Thing that I predicted, happened.Firstly, Happy 21st Birthday to Edwina~! =)
The other =X promiscuous girl. I know her as the perfume girl, make-up madly girl and "high-influential" girl.
Secondly, Lost.
Am I living for others or for myself?
This is becoming obvious when I feel like I don't know what I want or What I like... ...
I've been worrying about family, friends and boyfriend.
Totally forgotten that I existed.
I used to be a very decisive person.
I lost all of it.
I'm becoming someone whom I don't even recognize.
I am like I'm living in my body without my soul.
Thirdly, the "in-law" phobia.
When i heard that his dad told him secretly that i have been out really late for a few days when he was not around.
I was really shocked. I am not even their daughter-in-law yet. Why the curfew? why the sabotage?
Now, I still have to worry for what I am wearing, what time I go out... ...
I want to go back to my safe place with all my freedom.
The secret policy we had a year ago was that they don't interfere with our life?
Now?
I feel kind of offended. Seriously. Think about it. Imagine you are in my shoe how will you feel?
I FEEL LIKE A NOBODY!
I NEED TO GET A LIFE AND LIVE FOR MYSELF!
ARGH! I NEED TO WORK!
7:14:00 AM