Monday, September 24, 2007
So many things to blog about..
Firstly..
Happy belated birthday to Hong, Khai Bin, Hao,Sky...!!
Next.. happy 11th months anniversary to us..!
Thirdly, Happy end-of-provasion for me! Finally can take out my P-Plate..
=)
Work is super SuUX!..Endure!!
haiz.. for many times i realli feel like throwing my Uni to em and walk out!!
I can't.. i need the cash..
urgh!!
=(
i love shopping with the gals.. i spent over $100!..
I love swimming with my cousins n sis..
I love hunting his new home stuffs with him.. makes me feel like i wan to shift house n have my own room too! **Full of tinkerbells.. lol..
i love Spending my time with teddy.. he's forver so cute..
Looking at the bright side.. makes me feel contented..
However, there are other problems i faced.
So many to think of.. been thinking about stufss that happened lately..or all along.. i really dunno wad to do..
Haiz.. let it be? slowly ..time wil tell..
Sis getting married this sat.. i feel happy yet sad at the same time.. happy tt she has found her love.. n on her way to build her lil home.
Sad.. cos she her leave to U.S is comfirmed..
She will be leaving for 2yrs away from us..
promised to work hard to visit her..
Myself..
I am looking for another job..
Today stayed home to write my resume.. hope to get some replies..
Meanwhile, i endure!
May take up tutor job.. try?
Life is so tough here!
I am NOT HAPPY! What should i do.. =(
4:38:00 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
Over the weekend.. nth gd happened.. but the 2nd half of sunday was better.. =)
sat,i saw a tinkerbell blanket n was tinkin whether to buy not.. den he took out his wallet n bought it for me .. lol.. aiyo.. i need to tink if i need it ma.. cos too mani time i see tinkerbell i just buy n nv use.. hmm..
den sun there's a pasar malem.. we went there n saw a nicer tinkerbell blanket.. sob sobb.... so sweet that kind.. oh man!.. he wanted to buy den i stop him! 1 is enough to keep =Þ
den when i go toilet.. he bought a turtle wit smiley face to cheer me up...*surprise surprise..so tt i can hug n smile when i see it..
Thanks dear.. lol..
*sweet sweet..
2:32:00 PM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Been wondering..
Y some people have such a sweet look yet evil at heart..
As in not evil evil.. but they can only think for themselves and protect themselves.
I feel that workin in this line, u have to work as a team..
Help and guide one and other.
However.. all she look at is the sales and onli sales..
Y can't i be like tt?
i always insist that i have to work for WOrk onli.. but end up i;ll put my heart to upsell drinks and talk to pple.. close my bar nicely..
This is me.. i help my fellow collegss..
Like the other day we met with 1 big grp of very nasty customers who dun wan to leave..
I am the one confronting them.. ask them to leave.. but where is she?
In the office.. slowly telly the sales..
I'm thinking.. "Hello? its 1.30.. dun u care about ur staffs? we are paid only til 1!!"
Y is she like tt!
I miss workin with shah..She tinks for the staff and work as a teamm..
Haiz..
Back to the grp of nasty customers..
They are a bunch of idiots.. rich white collar mix of females and males..hong kong + singaporeans...
Brainless pieces of shit!
They came in near our last order..
Ordered one of the most expensive drink : MACALLAN 18 YEARS
afew double shots that adds up to $400.
They are happily drinking way past our closing time.. Deb, Vel each of them went to remind them that we are closed.. they insist for another 10 mins + 10 mins + 10 mins each time they approach them..
I am so pissed..
I went out to them ( add pathetic)... "Sorry our transport uncle is very angry with us..he will leave if we are not taking the transport in 10 mins.."
1 of them say.. "We dun care! ask the uncle to talk to me!"
Wat the hell!
The whole grp stare at me blankly..
i argued with him til he say tt he will shout if i continue to argue..
I explain to him abt the license thing.. say the police will come and everything..
He just say .."Oh, ask the police to talk to me."
F*** man!
i was damn pissed and ran over to 2 policeman/woman.
The worst thing is.. they told me that they wun interferre with disputes like this..
OMG!
They are 2 people wearing their uniform walkin ard Looking SMART and PRETTY, HANDSOME ONLY!!
U ARE SUPPOSE TO HELP >>> POLICEMAN?
Reluctanly, they came over and say that they will onli stand ther and look.. ask me to go over to ask them to leave again..
KAoZ!
I will never forget these people.. POLICEMAN and THE "RICH" and
heartless PEOPLE of the universe!
So what u are rich?????
does that mean u can bully people? by spending a mere $400, u tink u are king of the place?
We have to pack up to go home and rest!
i totally despise these people, i thought the ladies in the grp wll help lik..hey they need to close up to go home.. their tranport is coming.. But None .. i repeat NONE of the bitches Stood up for us..TEAM WORK! GOOD TEAM WORK..
IF I EVER BUMP INTO THEM EVER,I MAKE SURE THEY GO HOME IN A BAD SHAPE!
Hmph!
Next is the policeman/woman..
This is what you call safety is in their hands?
what has happen to all the real heros i see on TV?
POLICEMAN = RuBBISH!
Twice, i asked for their help, they rejected!
I hate them! they are doing NOTHING but acting that they do..
When u are in trouble, u have to rely on urself.. !
I wish n hope to leave this country, this place.. to somewhere wher i can find the community spirits..
Where people help one another...
This society is getting from bad to worst..
Wat has happened to the world man!
URGH!
Told u all its my bad week..
12:07:00 PM
This week i have been working every nite..
Work isn't fun as before..
Every nite i leave with a bad impression of the manager.. every day have to complain to the poor guy.. haa.. i promise to work hard for my future!!
* Bear With iT!!!
Few more mths graduate.. dunno if wan to continue.. or if can continue.. but will definitely promise to be hardworkin..!!
Everyday i think alot.. alot alot alot.. but dunno how to say it in words..
Things like who i am .. m i happy?..
Argh!
My future..
Wat i wana be.. ambitions.. wat i like and dislike..
Most imptly, m i happy anot..
i've been keeping myself busy....dunno whether m i running away from some facts i dun like or m i realli busy.. haiz...
This week sux totally.. totally sux big time!
!~##@%*^&^*)(*&(
#%^#@%$!#
12:00:00 PM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
LESLY TLS!!
SOrry SOrryy!! lol.. type too fast la.. AAnyw.. mon we go shop shop.. have fun k? lol..
i Want MUACK MUACKS!!
love you baby si si!!
12:28:00 PM
Monday, September 10, 2007
Anyway, thu went sentosa with my ho sis except my elder sis...
Sun tanning and ate COASTIES for dinner... expensive poor service.. never to go there again.. lol..
Went vivo shop shop...
Think of my bangkok trip.. save save save!!
Fri to sun .. work full full full...
$$$
At parkway.. with qin and nana.. hehe.. quite fun though.. but tiring la.. stand whole day and smile.. we gossip alot..
Being thinking...
Sometimes i feel tt i'm lost.. i want to find back myself.. i feel so lost.. and confused.. of everything.. i dunno y.... urgh!!! think think think!!!
Suppose to have a presentation today.. but cancelled.. stupid la.. den feel tt how come everybody seems to noe wat they wan or wat they are doing but not me?!
Haiz.. oh no... running late to meet qin qin!!! TatTATAAA~~
7:34:00 PM
To DEAREST LESLY TSL... IF NOT,.. CAN SKIP... >.< '''
Hmm.. after reading your blogg...
My dearest sis.. there's a misunderstaning.. Right from the beginning .. that piles up to here..
**Its all about the past... Clear and thats it..***
Firstly, Msia..
What i want is to buy his stuff and we can frgt it n shop our own..
U noe i'm a frgtful person.. so i like to settle 1 ting den will have peaceful mind to shop..
before goin, the person agitate me.. always shoot me with stuffs..
Den see the way u 2 talk to each other..seriously : Jealous.. cos i feel tt my bestfren is teaming up wit a "stranger"(that time)...
slowly, i feel tt u 2 are closer so i sort of pull myself away..
1 period of time i was damn pissed wit her..
U dunno wat she did in front of me.. haiz..
Mayb i'm sensitive or wat..
She keeps talking abt u.. like as if she noe u better den me..
Do u noe wat i fear most??
Is my best fren is getting closer to my enemy..Den one one side of her is grinning to me while the other side of u is getter further away..
It hurts whenever u side her..
Of cos, to prevent anymore damage, i pull away..
2ndly, KTV...
I apologise tt i'm draggin at home cos again.. i dun feel like going..
but i want to meet up with u..
However, To see my best fren so close with my enemy? how wld u feel?
but still, i hurried up and rush there.. I WAS REALLY LOSt.. (Just like my sis birthday.. i knew u will be angry.. but have u ever tot of the feelin of getting lost in somewer u dunno??? u keep turning and turnning yet stil gets to the same spot??i ended up in ubi instead of st james..)
i dunno y i end up at the lane i recog.. the way to my BF's pub..
so, i went over.. called him.. rush him..
To hurry and bring me to Kster..
He den show me the way...
When i was there.. i called.. den called her.. she say u all are almost done.. dun need to come up le.. den i told her i'll be waiting for u all at macs..
I even took my supper there.. but u all haben come down..
I went away and sobbed..
Y is happening?
I hid all my feelings.. ForGiVE AND FORGET...
I dun blame her.. but slowly, whenever i tell her tings we do or tings abt u, she'll say.. "ohh... i noe i noe..."
I'm like ..
Hello? is she my bestfren or u? That was when i start to suspect things.. i dunno do u or not..
Up til today.. tings fall apart.. still.. FORGIVE AND FORGET...
I dun blame anyone.. but me..
I choose to run away..
Lastly, my BF..
Yup, i agree i'm very sticky.. but isn't that life when it comes to someone u want to see and u are happy to see them?
Just like you and von.. got 1 period i was single and u are always wit her... i nv blame u..
cos i understand tt u hav found a partner to live wit..
I feel that we are the same jus tt she is in ur house..
Although in the very beginning i do not agree to such relat.. but i noe u will be happy n she's nice to u.. i support u thru...
The gal.. sometimes is nice to me.. hear my complaints and how much i drifted away from u..
On the other hand, i feel that she is very happy that i am... K.O..
Whenever i tink of tt, i feel that i am such a loser.. Even my bestfren oso can get snatch by pple so easily.. my "moriel" (dunno how to spell) was low..
i really hate it when people doubt me and is suspicious of me..
like why m i like tt.. every1 needs 3 strong pillar to "kaO"..
1)Family
2)Friends
3)Bf
Imagine all the pillar falls.. my world fall..
Pillar 1 and 2 fall and collaspe.. left with pilllar 3.. although its risky.. that there is no alternatives..pple dun accept me..
i have to slowly rebuild..
ttz when i found qin... Qin support me thru..
She's the only somebody when i have nobody...
Last of the last...
i apologise for my un-changeable "running away attitude" that leads to this stage..
So from today on, i hope u will understand and not look at me one kind...
hao ma?? ...
start from where we stopped.. that is.. ... ...
To meet up once a or wk two.. coffee or prata.. civic.. cwp.. 883.. everywer.. =)
Hugs n kisses.. no matter wad, u are always my besties..sis of the sis..
Muacks muacks..
6:44:00 PM
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Yesterday went to collect the keys to my dearie's new house..
Woke up as early as 830am..went HDB hub.
After tt, went back to his dad's place den mum's work place..
his mum ask us to get marry fast!
OMG.. i've never tot tt she will want things to go so fast..
hahaa..
Aniw, yest at HDB hub, i saw most of the people working belongs to the more senior pple..
The cust officer who attends to us is very cautious.. going through each doc slowly.. and check word by word, num by num.. lol..
Next, is the reception who collects the money is 2 senir citz of abt over 60 yrs old.. with the thick glses..
Hmm.. i am in no means to criticise them but just find the scene very cute.. in a way the govt is giving them a chance to work. this is a gd thing to see =).. as long as u are willing to learn, nothing is impossible..
hmm.. den went to the bank to bank in my cheq..
Now, i am thinking for myself.
Is this the kind of job i want? to do all the paper work and file the doc?
Just the the hdb hub ppl.. file doc..stay in office whole day?
Then i tot of wad i enjoyed most.. ... ... NCC!!
I told my bf... "Shall i go for the Army force?"
"Army Vs NCC ---> So much difference!!!"
cannot compare and make your judgement thru here!
Sob sob.. i love adventure i love going out meet people.. have fun together.. i love goin to camps.. i love goin mountain climbing..
Miss the gd old days..
So coinc to see les's blog..
She's thinkin of those days too...
Hee.. i guess these are the most unforgetable memories of our lives..
Although now in diff sch, diff work, kinda drift..
As long as we believe and accept .. true frens dun need to meet everyday to be true best frens...
Its all in the heart..
To the dearest gal of my life, i'm alwaz a phone call away if u need some1 to talk to.(or miss me?) hee....I dunno wat u hav been influenced with...perhaps,u may feel drifted is cos pple anyhw say things u feel i changed. To me, i've never feel the dist until the day when u believe wat others say..
u shld u noe me best..u noe who i am.. "i am who i am.."no matter wad others say, i hope u believe me.. the real me u noe..
*Smiles..
Qin qin!! misses..
Going clubbing later... hope to have fun? hmm.. haven;t been clubbing ages..
First, now doing resume!
Hees..
HolsHolsHols!!
OUT TO HAVE FUN!!
11:49:00 AM
Sunday, September 02, 2007
My life with our lil puppy...
....This is a dream come true.... *Thanks to him again.. =)
I've always wanted to have a puppy since young.
However, my parents object to it cos my sis have asthma and it is troublesome, no time for it, too expensive...
Now, i've experience the life with a dog.
They need alot of love and attention.
Our life has changed since the beginning..
it is forever whinning..
It always breaks my heart to leave him alone..left with no choice..
I love the way we have to baby talk with him..
We'll bring him out to walk almost everyday..
He loves to play on grass and lay flat on it..
and look up innocently..
It always bring a smile on my face..
So cute and adorable..!
alwas filled with eagerness when we are about to reward him with his treats.
lil movement we have, he'll bounce up and look.. forever so mishievious. curious and full of questions..
Too bad we are of different kind.. can onli communicate through actions and simple words..
i love to hug him and carry him with me whenever i can.. the warmth of his lil body is like a miracle.. This is the living thing i yearn for!
Hee..
This companion has changed our lives greatly.. more responsibility and time is need..
He changed our lives.. i love my Teddy!! =)
12:48:00 AM
Saturday, September 01, 2007
Firstly.....Happy Teachers' Day!!!
today, i'm super slack.. wake up,watch movie wit my dear and we were so engrossed in this very old school gambling show tt we decided to order pizza..**yummy!
After that went to Jeremy's birthday party.. went there for buffet awhile den we left.. Feel so distance with my poly click..cos all of them are from the same class..
i simply miss the good old days when we play, eat,study, do project together... laugh and disturb teachers together.. every lil thing.. they are the memories i have for my poly life..
In fact, i'm distanc-ed away from almost everybody..
there are so many questions around.. so many things.. i choose to run away.. and live everyday thinking.. just simply, think and think and think..
argh.. now, here i am.. 1st sept 2007.. time flies flies flies.. like the bullet in the gun.. my life is being triggered this way..
Sometimes i pondered ... what have i gained this year.. very soon i'll be leaving school.. graduate..
Everyday, my mind seems to be filled up with stuffs.. but i just dunno how to put the bits and pieces together.. which left me thinking..."what m i tinkin.."
I wish to talk to someone.. but nobody seems to understand..
sometimes i really feel lik i'm one of those people who just left jail.. people can't accept me.. my changes..
perhaps thats the reason why people feel tt i changed?
But what have i changed?
to be a more violent gal? more bitchy gal? or some freak thing i hav taken up?
*frustrationtt leaves me with only someone i can turn to.. my guy.. he's the one who listens to my grumbling, lets me vent my anger and frustration.. he's always there to hear my lil lil stories.. lil thoughts.. Although he always ask me not to think so much.. but i just couldn't help it..
This is me.
.... just that i have found someone to love and share my life with.. is it wrong to be in love?
haiz.. i realli miss the gd old days.. but i ruin it...
I;ve gained one.. but lost many..
Things will never be the same again..
I'll never forget those memories.. engraved deep in my heart.. lil movies that made my life so wonderful..
Getting emo here..
thats another grumbling of mine...
Aniw, besides that, i am happy..
I am Content.. esp with a lil life we took back..
So much to say .. hehe.. will update in a while..
Aniw, last wkend me n hm went to took our 1st neoprint!!!
Hee.. i love it alot! but suppose we designed 2other very nice picts.. i dunno wat i pressed (cos i dun uds Jap !! ) the frame changed!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Argh!! Wasted man!! hmph!! mus go learn jap liao..! lol...
last Sun went sentosa with PB staff..
Quite fun though.. played cards with em.. But i was drunk and vomitted by the siide of the road.. =x damn gross... didn't noe the effect come so slow! if i noe i should hav stop!
aiyoyo!
Most imptly, MY HOLS IS HERE!!!!
HEHEHE... so happy that we are able to finish our sip/mp!
Can relax.. while some other grps hav to go back during hols to complete..
But we still got judging on the 10sept.. hope everything goes well smoothly!
Den need to re-do a display board.. and log book not completed..
stil have a lil work there compared to them =x =x.. Jia you Jia you for em!! hehe!!
For this hols...
1. Earn as much as i can $$$$$$$$$
2. Spend time with frens and family..MEET UP MEET UP!!!
3. Pay my road Tax and sent bike for checking- LTA
4. Write Resume
5. Think about my ambition!
6. To look for and Buy impt belated birthday present for my sisters!
7. GO BANGKOK!!!
8. Prepare to learn car.
9. Take 2A licence
10. Save $$ for whitening teeth
11. ... ... ... never ending plans.. hehe
More hols more hols!!!
I love Hols!!
=)
11:13:00 PM