Monday, February 26, 2007
If I could have just one wish,I would wish to wake up everydayto the sound of your breath on my neck,the warmth of your lips on my cheek,the touch of your fingers on my skin,and the feel of your heart beating with mine...Knowing that I could never find that feelingwith anyone other than you.- Courtney Kuchta -My sudden urge for love poems... ...
1:32:00 AM
Sunday, February 25, 2007
I miss ADL,Qin,Hong,Bec... ...
Tioman! Thats it!
will plan after exams.
1:33:00 AM
I miss ADL,Qin,Hong,Bec... ...
Tioman! Thats it!
will plan after exams.
1:33:00 AM
A day nearer.
A day wiser.
With goals that seems so impossible at first, now it is possible.
Promise a better life.
1:31:00 AM
Its been a week since i last updated!
Busy with exams and CNY..
Reunion dinner was sweet and homely. Just the few of us surrounding the warm "fireplace"..
Steamboat i mean.
After that, he came over and watched tv, painted my nails.
Les n his guy is here too.
Together, we count down.
The guy and gal and my family. This is New year, new beginning, new, better me.
CNY- Day 1
Went to uncle's place at Ghim Moh. Quieter than before.
It feels just like any other days.
New clothes, new shoes.
But the mood is not there.
I don't know why.
Perhaps is the exams?
Questions.
Came back, do a little chores before heading to Another Uncle's house for the yearly families gatherings. Almost complete.
This time, Dad is able to make it. Hope he feels the warmth. Like i did.
Took pictures.
Sorry guys, i don't know how to upload it here. hehe.
teach me if u happen to know!
Spent the night at his place.
After meeting les of cos. =) Our yearly meeting!
CNY-Day2
He ordered Pizza.
We had our stomach filled to the brim.
Went to sis's godma house for another round of dinner and house visiting.
Collect red packets.
Home.
Went to Mary's house for a gambling session!
Broke my own rule.
i gambled for the 1st time.
With merely a $2, i won $26
My beginner's luck is working.
Alright. i got mixed up with the days.
Haha.
Basically,this CNY seems to pass real fast.
For this festive season, can't enjoy as much. Had to study for my exams.
Had been staying over at his place quite alot lately. Until i miss my bed. =x
Some wierd and disturbing dreams i had.
He's right beside me and on his bed. I dreamt of the past.
Is this some test or what?
The dream i had haunt me.
Thinking.
Anyway, had my test yesterday. It was easy but i did not do well. Was too distracted, i guess.
I went straight to school from his house, wearing his top.
Ru knew i was wearing his shirt. so do Na. LOL.
My friends thought i was sick with no make up.
The ugliest day of my life.
Thu.Had a little tiff with him after school.
Was unhappy.
Why he never bring me home to his parents for the NY and his friends.
Am i too ashamed to be introduced?
But he brings me to his mum's shop the other day.
i met his granny and mum.
Or is it just that he's just don't treat Ny seriously?
Am i too sensitive or what?
He gave me an eye-mask as a surprise gift.
Was touched though.
Sometimes i couldn't help but wonder, is he guy i want to spend the rest of my life with?
Are we improving as in closing up our gaps?
Will i be able to stand his "Secretiveness" acts?
or M i thinking too much...
Guys guys guys...
They make girls think so much with answers like "U think too much.." ... ARGH!
12:50:00 AM
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Happy Belated Valentine's Day!!! =)
lol...
Spent Vday at his place watching SIC..
=x nth much cos everyday is our Vday.. lol.. as long as we have each other.. rite?
hehe.. aniw, he gave me 2 tinkerbell pendant..after my work on the 13th.. =)
Spent the nite sitting near Fullerton chatting..
Yest, went to his house.. he gave me another T &C ring.. haha.. reali want to tie me down.. my both hands de fourth fingers he "bao" le.
i Bought a pair of very special necklaces for us.. from bits n pieces.. v Ex.. but its worth it. =x
My somewhat 2nd Vday.
i love it.
its like kit kat choc. that u have to break it. and we share each halfs.
so symbolic..
so romantic..
kisses and more kisses! =)
Its been such a long time.. .. ..
4:07:00 PM
Monday, February 12, 2007
on fri, 9 feb, Celebrated a simple Birthday with my beloved dad.
Happy birthday my love!
He was overjoyed and love the cake we bought.
Before that, i acc Ru to suntec and bugis.
Had an awesome ride through changi airport, over the sea, a beautiful scenery.
A busy day with her. Had a filling Thai food for lunch.
At night, met lian...
i Acc the gals to buy their Vday pressie.
What should i get for him?
Had been thinking...
Anyway, We went drinking at the Balcony.
Spent the night talking and talking.
Girls thing.
Spent the night at her place.
The weekend was spent at Aloha chalet.
Drinking and eating.
It was fun looking at people getting drunk and their aftermath.
In the morning, someone talked to me. Finally, we managed to talk "comfortabily"...
I was very very relieved that things turn out this way.
Thanks =) Thats what i liked about u.. in another way though..
=) HOORay!! lol!!!
11:16:00 PM
Here to wish Mr. Fahmi a very happy birthday!! =)
hmm.. a very typical monday.
Went school, took ORGCOM test.
came back to buy CNY goodies.
Two Auntie look-alike pushing the NTUC trolley all the way up to our house.
Wad a sight.
Went to Fahmi's house to have a mini celebration. Distance, yet its still comfortable with them.
Nadbila riding CBR 150!!! first hand..
Thats the support of her family.
Home with a tiff of god knows what.
11:05:00 PM
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Skipped school.
Alone, i try to solve my problem.
But it wasn't just about me.
Met him in the afternoon.
Talked to him, unknowingly, my eyes are watery.
I thought that it would be the last.
But it was the beginning.
Yet, another problem solved.
Sent me home to get my stuffs, spent my peaceful night sleeping with ease =)
I feel secure again with his arms around me.
Kiss goodnight.
How lucky can i be.
Hmm.. Today i overslept.
Speed to school =x
Laboratory Test was satisfying and French speaking Test was fabulous.
A new start. A new result. I'm working harder for this exam.. !
Talked to my sis just now.
Time flies.
One moment we shared the same bed room, changed together, spending special occasion.
The next, she may be gone for two years in U.S.
What a shock this brings.
A new chapter if life for her.
The most important moment of an women's life. Marriage.
May god Bless her and wish her an eternity of happiness... ...
Same for my lil sis and elder sis... not forgetting myself, mum, dad, granny and him..
=) life is precious and beautiful... ...
10:52:00 PM
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
A night full of question.
Full of answers.
I knew him more.
A deeper affection.
=)
He is indeed mysterious and secretive.
They say, "As long as u like it.."
LOL!
Hugs to my lovely sisters.. ADL, QIN, BEC, HONG.. miss u all so much!
1:09:00 PM
Monday, February 05, 2007
Its been a week.
Still, everyday i think about the HP thing. I just couldn't help it.
One moment, i pretended nothing happened, next, i was "emo" about that night,wondering how much i meant to him...
Come to think of it, i've found the indept reason of why i want to check on his hp, 1st i was curious jus merely want to have a look,yet the strong resistance makes me suspicious,2ndly,i want no secrets btw us, i want to lead a normal life like all other couple, for example, like anytime his phone rings, be it msg or call, i can help him pick up or read aloud to him. Isn't that what we call transparency?Doesn't that sounds like a couple?
Sometimes, i just don't like the way he's such a loner. And he love it that way. Its been years he's been doing things alone and all. I may not be that someone special that can change his life, but i really hope that i'm not just a passer-by,like any other girlfriends of his~ Ther's no future if this goes on..there'll always be a barrier between me and him. Just spending each day as precious as it may b.. Question: Is is reasonable if i ask of him to let me see his HP?
urgh..~
A usual busy week.
Wed, i went Gotham with my colleage n him. Was Drunk.
Had a hang over the other day.
Before this, i met him for a short yet meaningful moments at his place, watching "Sex in the City".
I got addicted to the show ever since the day i started watching it. Its not just about sex n more sex.
Its about the Question we asked ourselves. The lives of the 30 something women- let me correct this, "4 Successful Single women".
Each series is a 20 minute short play, that makes it not so lengthy that would bore us to death. I enjoyed watching it with him, cos' as the show goes by, i'd ask him the same question as of the show. Lol.. hope he doesn't get bothered by my frequent posting of Q^s.. ..
We learnt from it..
We were discussing about his work just now.
He makes me think of what i want to be and what are my goals in life...
That makes me come to a conclusion in mind. I want to study and work hard for myself and my family,i want to bring my dad home.. =)
Down with fever this morning due to yesterday.I didn't wear my jacket. Had a terrible cold.. it was so bad that i had to stop myself from shivering even after i got home.
Though suffering from headache and backache, that didn't make me break my promise.
Had a short yet fulfilling trip with my lil sis..
Shopping at bugis.. its been sometime since we came out with a "Good" ending..
Anyway, Exams round the corner.
I wish all the best n hope he'll find a job he wants.. *pray *pray.. hope as time goes by, he'll be able to overcome his phobia.. to prove that there's really nothing.. the more he hides, the more my suspicion grows... ... ...
1:59:00 AM