Thursday, April 26, 2007
Yestersday went for briefing...
Before tt, we are so bored tt Ru suggested we go Ikea for a walk!
HAha.. so there we are half way through, we just went out like that..
Lookin at the furniture, how i wish i can have a house a home lik tt..
Dreaming.. Thinking..
I MUST WORK HARD!!!
today started our MP/SIP at NUS...
The "campus" we are in is actually deep inside the "hilly" kent ridge.
It rained heavily this morning.
I arrived first.
Even before the Dr. do.
Kept calling but to no avail.
Had a lil tiff with my team mate.
Haiz..
i do not wish to be like that but sometimes when one's temper is provoked...
Firstly, i gave her a morning call..
When i reached, she told me she overslept.
Since the Dr. is not here yet, so i waited.
Went for breakfast..
My other team mate arrived.
so we waited for her.
When she arrived, she did not even apologise.
I asked of her to quickly get her breakfast and we should be going to meet the Dr.
She shouted at me.
She wanted to have a rest before heading off..
Speechless.. My fault? u went clubbing yest nite, woke up late.. is it my fault?
Already warned her she will be very tired, she promised that she will be fine.
I was very dissapointed.
Her lack of responsibility and urgency.
So, i kept quiet for the whole day.
Suppose to report at 9.30am. We report at 11am.
I understand that she's tired after her clubbing trip last nite.
But must we all comply to heR? her irresponsibility?
I've never been like this for a long long time.
ITs awkward and feels uneasy in me as well, to quarrel with a good friend?
Why can't she understand ? Must she repeat her past?
She told me she have not much friends because of this attitude of hers.
But can't she learn some lessons from this?
Friends need to give and take.
I tolerated her.
I understand tt she was pampered but this time around, i give up.
The promises.. All broken..
I know i will not take this to heart.
But all i want from her is to let her see where she has gone wrong.
With this attitude of hers, i dunno how this project is going to work.
I dunno how will she survive when she enters the adulthood.
Argh~
What a
sucky day..
My 3 mths... in the Container ... Felt like a bird trapped in a cage..
We were given a few notes to read and understand the background.. for the next 1 wk, tts what our task are...
How boring...
At first, we were really excited.
Going to a U for attachment..
The new phase new environment.. new people...
I thought its a good place for us to get closer and LEARN sometime out of it.
But with this, i feel like i'm wasting my time.ToTallY.
At least Give us something to do?
Guide us?
Teach us?
Didn't know Uni is so"INDEPENTDENT"!
a min seems lik a yr..
Anyway, luckily stayed over at his place.. cos i know the road better.
Love to tug under his arms =)
Although is only to sleep, the feel of him lying beside me..
That moment is what i call bLiSs..
Shouldn't think too much i guess.. Chance i gave.. trust we must build, once more.
I'll try my best not to bring up the past (sometimes just couldn't help but this mouth of mine keeps "suaning" =X )
ARgH~ Mentrual cramps.. backaches.. The gal ting.. Went home to sleep after tt.. hehe.. just woke up..
Felt slightly better...
Come to think of it.. Tml.. another boring day to come.. if this goes on, i'll go crazy!
9:54:00 PM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Yesterday one of my regulars came by..
He told me one of his best buddy passed away.
my condolences.
I felt helpless.
Only to ask him to take it easy.
Life is not controlled by us and stuffs..
I diverted the topic.
We talked about travel and wines instead.
After that, he Thanked me for my company.
I came to realise that what they need is only a listening ear and a company.
i'm glad i can play a part at his lowest peak of his life.
i wondered..
Life is short.. Too short for us to waste.
The theory of the importance of time is very meaningful.
i tot..
What have i achieved for the past 19 years..
What's my goals?
What do i want in life?
blah blah bla...
i want to live a fruitful and meaningful life..
Until..
when i Breathe my last,i'll leave a smile on my face..
Before i close my eyes.
This is the meaning behind.
i believe each and everyone of us are unique and special.
so, i hope all of my love ones will find their own special character and make use of that as a weapon to all the obstacles that is ahead of us.
i'm a believer of the ups and downs in life.
After every downs, very soon , u'll be reaching another higher peak of ur life.Or perhaps, highest.
Be patience.
=) Cheers...
11:26:00 PM
School started!!
i Went to school on monday with a mental preparation of HEAVy work load.
I WAS WRONG!
basically, we were rotting the whole day!
haha..
i even went to find him for lunch and went back just to punch out.
Anyway, Ru,Me,Na, all of us was surprised!
Our attachment will be at NUS.
We'll be doing a research project with the people there!
hehe ... =)
some benefits i tot of..
1) great exposure
2) Heavy responsibility
3)No Pay
4)Nearer
... ...
Went To work aft sch..
Before working Ru n me went Harry's for a drink.
Both of us was really high!
hehe.. lucky i worked floor.. if bar, i'll be doing wrong drinks.. hahahha..
Had a lil tiff with him =x
Today, i found out the truth behind his "mysteriousity" ...
Was really very touched.
I had been so wrong.
So suspicious.
he was about to give me a surprise.
Yet, i ruined it.
Hahaa.. but i'm totally speechless.
Didn't expect him to do that for me.
Hmm.. now, my turn, i want to give him a surprise.
Any ideas people?
11:01:00 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Something ran past my mind..The question of is it worth it.Will make a wise decision.No regrets.No waste of time.No hurt.
11:48:00 AM
Being working!!!
For $$ ... argh...
i burned my poor thumb yesterday.
And its the same thumb i broke last year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SObSobSob...
Last time, i scold the little ones not to play with fire.
Now, this big "girl" played with fire and got herself burned.
Hours of suffering...
The burning sensation.. WOOO~~
All because of the SAMBUCA Bottle!!
Hmph!
Anyway, school will be starting in 2 days time.
Will be working hard for the last year!
Wondering where will i end up in.
With this diploma...
11:41:00 AM
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Happy birthday to my lil sis!! =)
Hope she liked the lil surprise..
I spent my day sleeping at home whole day.
Went and meet hong =)
Finally.
But we seems to have distance.
Friendship...
Is important to me.
Had a tiff With my guy.
Oh my...
Not again!
Alright...
Happy half a yr anni to us~!
Its being 6mths... we stand strong.
I don't know about the future but i hope this will work...
=)
God bless?!
Happy working!!
11:18:00 AM
Monday, April 16, 2007
WenT TioMan for 4days!!Fun!!Sun tanning all day long..Went snokelling...Gambling and drinking..Sleeping..HEhe.. Tioman is like a village.Away from the hectic lifestyle of ours.Entering a simple Village life.Everyday what we have to think about is out meals.These four days have got me tanned.The dazzling stars shinning above us is B-E-A-U-Tiful..Esp the night when the whole town black out, we panic at first.The stars.Shine brightly above us, drew our attention away from our fear -darkness.The sight of it is like a thousand diamond lying on a black piece of paper.Can u imagine? =)Although the corals aren't as catchy as those in redang, i still enjoy it though =)having lots of fun with the gals...i'll miss it..Where's next gals??Lol..The funny part is this provision shop aunty..She keeps repeating the same Q^s.. "Going snokelling tml? Remember to buy bread from me!"When its dunno the how many times we being there.She just can't remember our faces.Perhaps its just her desperation for customer. She don't remember us.Laughter.This trip do free my mind.Finally can sleep with ease.=)Loves..Thanks gals for the wonderful time.As for the blur blur Qin.U ah! next time better check properly!!!Hmph!!lol..Yest u saw him le!!! =xSorry for the non-hospitality! lol..We'r disturbing each other. hehe..muacks! miss u!
11:50:00 AM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Days past...
Chance is my decision.
i don't want to live with regrets.
Like i did years ago...
People make mistakes.
Most importantly is they learn.
Will be more cautious now.
A little mistake, i shall leave.
This time, with no regrets.
Time will tell.
I hate to go through this phase of life.
Yes, we'll learn from it, be stronger.
But what we attain in the end id phobia.
A little move is suspicious.
I don't know how long can i bear with this.
Living with fear.
Yet, HAVE to be strong and i did it.
I faced it.
No longer running away.
No matter what happens, i WiLL be strong.
They are just a company.
Not a pillar for me to rely on.
Although now that we are closer than ever, fear is still in me .
Lies and deception. Like i say...
Working alot lately, just to fill my time so that i will be preoccupied with things and keep myself away from thinking.
i shall distance myself.
Let him do the "love".
i shall be more positive.
i shall be more open, more prone to "attacks".
So, people, don't worry.
I am still standing strong and defensive.
No one can hurt me -that bad.
Anyway, apart from these, finally after 2 years, i took out my braces.
I look and feel different.
Perhaps, this marks a new beginning a new me.
No longer have to go through "a new hair thing after break-ups therapy"
Haha..
Yes, this is the new me.
New goals...
Have more things to entertain to rather than letting stupid love to ruin my life.
=x
Diversion.
Me to love or love to me.
Let love come to me and not me chasing after fairytale love stories.
Life.
A loud shout out to my beloved SIN DEE!!!
Wishing her a very happy birthday!!
So glad that years later, today, we are still in contact list. lol.
Yup, tioman together. Lucky her! having a so-called 4 days celebration!
hehe..
all the best!
My dearest Qin, don't blur blur leh..book u this wed u go write nx wed.. u ah... hibernation for a week leh! haha.. nvm we'll have fun later! tea session! =)
Our future and happiness is in our own hands!!
11:48:00 AM