Sunday, May 27, 2007
Been thinking.. future..
PLans..
Had a conclusion....
Went Sentosa with my beloved aunty qin..
"ke yi zai anuty yi dian de.. =x"
whaha..
It was a great day- Sunny~~
Had great talks with her (as always).. Her enlighten-ment and encouragement!
I'm stronger.. at least i noe even if the whole world dun support me, there's stil a her!
hehe.. thanks gal!
Went GSS!!
=x
Went home with a new mango super huge bag and a 3/4 pants..
Pets Safari- I'm falling in love..
Aniw, tiff with him..
Just because i didn't call him to wake him up.. Tt affects the whole day..
The fact is that i wanted him to have a good rest before comin to join me. Tt simple.
YEt, he tot i dun wan him there. Crazy. Silly.
How would i or could i tot of tt..?
Urgh~!
Went home after VIVo..
Suppose to go mich house play wit the puppies..!
Den ATTICa with the gals..
End up, due to my Menstrual cramps, i stayed home.
Sleep.
Jump up at the rite time!
haha.. called him..
I seriously miss him.
but.. i didn't say it.
=x
All day long, even if we are quarreling, i still look at his stuffs and thinking of him.
End up, i was sarcastic and chased him off to slp.
All we asked for is a simple life.
In the past, i dared not think of the future. No plans.
Just spending each day like the last.
Thats is all i asked for.
Nowadays, he's influencing me.
True enough we shuld have a goal to last..
Its just that i'm afraid that if things turn out otherwise, i'll be more than heart-broken.
I want to have a future and walk down the aisle someday.
This may sound foolish, to tink of it at this age of mine.
But i believe in our power of love.
But love isn't just love.
It's more to that.
Sometimes, "stupid things" hurt us.
i want to eliminate "stupid thing" and build this.
I wan to have a car with him, a house, a lil doggie of our own, sunday family life.
That kind of simplicity.
Its possible if we can work on this together.
Age gap is never a problem but is just that stms i like to joke abt tt, which make him feel uneasy =x
Seriously, last time i tot it will be, now no more. Because, we opened up.
I dunno this change is gd or not, but i hope i'm not "changing him" - to make him feel unhappy.
I know some things he never done before or ever so tolerant - me.
A question of "R you happy?" came across..
Because i am...
...Thinking of you...
...Thank god i found you...
Bedtime.
4:37:00 AM
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Yesterday was kinda emo cos i was packing my room- wardrobe and table.
Plus looking thru my past entries...
I threw away some clothes i kept for a long time.. I finally had the courage to throw away my ex's stuffs..=x
PLanned these 2 days do abit of house chores to clear my stuffs.
By throwing away old stuffs, new stuffs awaits to enter my life.
A new beginning =)
Some of the things i had kept for over 5 yrs, i threw away..
I can be quite of a "gurang guni" gal when it comes to keeping things..
hehe...
i packed my drawer.
I read through my cards -xmas, birthday, letters, etc...
I m glad to have such wonderful past.
I am considered lucky enough to have so many wonderful and supportive frens ard me.
I feel, i miss them alot.
Things changed, people change.. wadever it is, i stil hav to move on.
Life goes on right?
Later on, I'm planning to pack my piles of pictures i took..
=)
Looking at my past entries, i saw the changes in my life.
The exams anxiety, dance, proms, outings, frens, bgr..
I'm looking at them with watery eyes.
I do treasure those beautiful moments we had.
Before me is a life i chose.
I have a goal, i will work hard to achieve for it.
People,i need your support!
Firstly, i'll promise to graduate "safely"..
Secondly, I want to get a puppy! i noe i may not have the time to take care of it but i wil prior to changes with this!
Thirdly,i will work hard to earn lots of money..! Travel!!
LAstly, I want to spend more time with friends and family..While maintaining a good relationship with my dearest.
I want to plan my time wisely to fit all of them in.
I have a clearer goal now! HehEHe! feel so blissed.. Feel so happy when i have a good.
Feel more lively and more focused! At least, i noe, i am livin each n every sec of my life with no regrets.
Aniw, The past 2 wks have being a lil tough.
Quarrels ..
Friendship..
On the verge of a breakup..
I manage to solve it by opening up! =)
The weekends i spent with him was a normal "family kind"..
went to nearby neighbourhood shopping.. Had durians LAst last sat..
On mothers' day, he bring me go sakae eat.. had the urge for sushi.. den nite, he joined me with my fam for dinner.. had a simple, yet enjoyable dinner.. full of laughters =) i Love my Family!!
Went shopping alone on a tuesday aftr making passport with my lil sis.. spent $100 wor!!
but it was good buy =)
Twice we had a big fight..
However, the love he have for me was strong .. He did not give up despite my stubborn-ess.. I love you dearie!
I am glad to have such a loving guy with me..
Stms, i may be stubbborn, but behind every stubborn-ess i am protecting myself.
I dun wan to get hurt no more!
so, i hope, i've made the rite choice..
I hope we can grow old together =)
I wan to keep this going stronger each day..
I love the way we are now..
I hope a yr later, 5 yrs later, 10,20 yrs down the road, our love grows..
*Hugs Hugs...
So happy tt we can past 7 mths...
I made a card n gave him chocs..
He gave me a hand-made tinkerbell card!
Can see that he has been working on it for days de..
=) Thanks dear!
the contents were touching..
Let's work hard for this ting!!
hehe.. Mushy mushy! =X
Sunday, we went pasir ris dog farm!!
Oh my Oh my!
The puppies were more den cute n adorable! i'm falling in love with them.. the innocence they had.. these lil creatures do make my heart melt!
Had chilli crab for dinner.. *yummy yummy.. oops.. gaining tt extra pounds~
However, when we got home, he is facing trouble..
No matter wad, i want to stand by him.. and support him thru =)
Yesterday i went for facial! * i'm a beautiful gal... ... ...
Hehehe..
These 2 days in sch was more den boring..
Nana MC... I'm kinda lost in my work le.. sob sob..
3:50:00 PM
Friday, May 11, 2007
At this point of time i tot of u...
My love, my friends, my family..
i miss those days.
Having an enemy so close to me.
I'll stand strong and brave it through.
All i want is support and trust.
i believe our bond is strong.
So strong like diamond.
Precious.
I love my past.
I love my present.
I love my future.
For i believe, every single day of my life is meaningful.
Everyday i learn something new.
Every day we change.
Change to be someone better and more successful.
More stable and settled.
... ...
Before me is a whole lot of obstacles.
I know after this i will be a stronger me.
Thank god that even at this point of time,
i still have people to listen to and talk to.
Whenever i go to a different place,
with me feeling so down and can collaspe anytime,
I have a lil surprise that will brighten me up.
All this while has not being easy,
But i'll try my best to make life more meaningful once more.
A big thank you for your understanding and kind concern.
A sudden urge for poems.
=) My lovess, enjoy reading!!
12:27:00 PM
Friends will come and friends will go,
The seasons change and it will show,
I will age and so will you,
But our friendship stays, strong and true.
12:10:00 PM
Standing by,
All the way.
Here to help you through your day.
Holding you up,
When you are weak,
Helping you find what it is you seek.
Catching your tears,When you cry.
Pulling you through when the tide is high.
Just being there,
Through thick and thin,
All just to say, you are my friend.
- Brittani Kokko -
12:04:00 PM
That Is Love
Love is a strange and beautiful thing,
It spans time and space, distance is no object to love.
You will wait forever for the one you love,
Travel wherever you need to be with them.
When you are in the arms of the one you love,
That love can make a moment last a lifetime,
Yet make a lifetime seem no more than a moment.
When love is distant it grows strong,
When it returns it flowers.
People crave it, strive for it, fight for it, and die for it,
And when they find it, they know they are complete.
For in the arms of the one we love is wholeness,
Belief, completeness, passion, and security.
The one we love is someone for whom we would do anything,
And never ask for anything in return.
It produces a love of all that person is and will ever be,
Regardless of what that may mean to me.
Love knows that when you are away,
That you are still loved, cherished, thought after, and missed
By the one you love,And they know that you love them back.
That is Love.
- Nicolas Blackmore -
12:01:00 PM
Real love is feeling like being a part of that person's
life almost isn't enough. It's more like a feeling that
you would live in the same skin with them if you could
and share every thought, heart beat, and emotion as one.
- Rod Cannon -
11:52:00 AM
Love is so very special
Yet can make you feel so lost
It can arrive just like the springtime
And melt away like morning frost
You must find ways to nurture
Always grow your love with care
Never ever take for granted
The love that you both share
Mistakes are bound to happen
You may hurt each other's heart
Yet don't give up to easily
It will tear your love apart
Love resembles a bright flame
That lights a dark starry night
Never ever let this flame burn down
Rekindle with all your might
Take a moment every day
Look deep into each other's eyes
Never hesitate to show affection
Small gestures will keep a love alive
Talk openly about your feelings
Take time to show that you care
Treasure each and every moment
Because to find true love is rare
- Connie Thomas Lugo
11:50:00 AM
One look
One smile
One touch
One embrace
One kiss
One love
Two people
Two minds
Two souls
Two destinies
One road
One journey
One ending
Together.
- Melissa Higgins -
11:46:00 AM
Love that is true never grows old.- Elben Bano -
11:43:00 AM
To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world.
- Bill Wilson -
11:42:00 AM
Love is not blind -
It sees more and not less,
but because it sees more it is willing to see less.
- Will Moss -
11:41:00 AM
Love is like a mountain,
hard to climb,
but once you get to the topthe view is beautiful.
- Daniel Monroe Tuttle -
11:39:00 AM
Love feels no burden,
thinks nothing of trouble,
attempts what is above its strength,
pleads no excuse of impossibility...
It is therefore able to undertake all things,
and it completes many things,
and warrants them to take effect,
where he who does not love would faint and lie down.
Love is watchful and sleeping, slumbereth not.
Though weary, it is not tired;
though pressed, it is not straitened;
though alarmed, it is not confounded...
- Thomas A. Kempis -
11:37:00 AM
The Magic Of Love
Love is like magic
And it always will be.
For love still remains
Life's sweet mystery!!
Love works in ways
That are wondrous and strange
And there's nothing in life
That love cannot change!!
Love can transform
The most common place
Into beauty and splendor
And sweetness and grace.
Love is unselfish,
Understanding and kind,
For it sees with its heart
And not with its mind!!
Love is the answer
That everyone seeks...
Love is the language,
That every heart speaks.
Love can't be bought,
It is priceless and free,
Love, like pure magic,
Is life's sweet mystery!!
-Helen Steiner Rice -
11:34:00 AM