Monday, February 05, 2007
Its been a week.
Still, everyday i think about the HP thing. I just couldn't help it.
One moment, i pretended nothing happened, next, i was "emo" about that night,wondering how much i meant to him...
Come to think of it, i've found the indept reason of why i want to check on his hp, 1st i was curious jus merely want to have a look,yet the strong resistance makes me suspicious,2ndly,i want no secrets btw us, i want to lead a normal life like all other couple, for example, like anytime his phone rings, be it msg or call, i can help him pick up or read aloud to him. Isn't that what we call transparency?Doesn't that sounds like a couple?
Sometimes, i just don't like the way he's such a loner. And he love it that way. Its been years he's been doing things alone and all. I may not be that someone special that can change his life, but i really hope that i'm not just a passer-by,like any other girlfriends of his~ Ther's no future if this goes on..there'll always be a barrier between me and him. Just spending each day as precious as it may b.. Question: Is is reasonable if i ask of him to let me see his HP?
urgh..~
A usual busy week.
Wed, i went Gotham with my colleage n him. Was Drunk.
Had a hang over the other day.
Before this, i met him for a short yet meaningful moments at his place, watching "Sex in the City".
I got addicted to the show ever since the day i started watching it. Its not just about sex n more sex.
Its about the Question we asked ourselves. The lives of the 30 something women- let me correct this, "4 Successful Single women".
Each series is a 20 minute short play, that makes it not so lengthy that would bore us to death. I enjoyed watching it with him, cos' as the show goes by, i'd ask him the same question as of the show. Lol.. hope he doesn't get bothered by my frequent posting of Q^s.. ..
We learnt from it..
We were discussing about his work just now.
He makes me think of what i want to be and what are my goals in life...
That makes me come to a conclusion in mind. I want to study and work hard for myself and my family,i want to bring my dad home.. =)
Down with fever this morning due to yesterday.I didn't wear my jacket. Had a terrible cold.. it was so bad that i had to stop myself from shivering even after i got home.
Though suffering from headache and backache, that didn't make me break my promise.
Had a short yet fulfilling trip with my lil sis..
Shopping at bugis.. its been sometime since we came out with a "Good" ending..
Anyway, Exams round the corner.
I wish all the best n hope he'll find a job he wants.. *pray *pray.. hope as time goes by, he'll be able to overcome his phobia.. to prove that there's really nothing.. the more he hides, the more my suspicion grows... ... ...
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